I watched a bit of Sharon last night. I just came in from dinner with friends (after the graduation program) and I got home tired and hot due to the weather. I decided to sit down a bit to watch the program. It was about Teenage Pregnancy. One question that caught my attention was when Sharon Cuneta asked the girls if the thought of “abortion” or letting go of fetus “ever” crossed their mind. Two of the girls said yes, but due to guilt, can’t do it. And the other one said “never” because of her too much love towards the baby’s father. Now, the 3 ladies interviewed were celebrities in the world of Philippine movie industry and I thought if sth happens to any of them like this, they can never think anything like that coz “money” could never be a problem. But the two girls have good reasons why at one point they thought that way.
Well, i’ve been there. If Sharon is able to ask me the same question then I would answer “yes.” But because of horrible thoughts of the outcome afterwards – i have to garbage the thought. But I can still clearly remember when I said yes and that was the time when my mom asked me this, “so, what’s your plan now.” I replied right away, “i’m letting it go.” Mom then replied, “if that’s your decision then go ahead. I will call your aunts to assist you.” Right away the aunts were called. When they arrived at our home, I asked them about the procedure, how many days, what to drink or take, will i be sick or what. They replied, “the procedure will take 2 weeks.” It was like my mouth got cut in the middle when i shouted — “whattttttttttttttttttttt?” I called my mom into my bedroom and said, “pls tell them to go home. i don’t wanna let this fetus go anymore. Am scared. I’d better face the consequence of hardship of rearing this baby than facing the guilt feeling forever.” Mom let my aunts go. hehehhe
For now, my baby is up and active and very very hard headed at times. I often joked with her that I will put her back inside my tummy if i can’t bear her ugali anymore. hahaha

By the way, i think my case was not a “teen-age” pregnancy but early adulthood pregnancy. It was like am physiologically ready to be pregnant but not yet emotionally.