Imagine i missed 2 weeks. hehehe. But anyway here it is –
on August 16 – What is your biggest fear in life?
Well, there are many motherly or relationship fears that i imagined as i grow up like:
- am scared to die with dimple unsettled yet in life.
- am scared if one day dimple comes home crying coz she is bullied in school about “her father” thing.
- am scared my son will hate me thoughout his life if he is being brainwashed i abandoned him for selfish reasons.
- mom dies in off moments or after long illness in the hospital or when am not there
- if my mother and father fight again and will just kill mom instantly because of heart attack.
- am afraid i could curse my father til his death bed.
and the most —>
- am scared if Jesus comes now because am so sure am not yet ready. See my above fears? It means i haven’t forgiven my father yet or i dunno if i can ever still. And if I don’t forgive all the people i hurt and hate, i can’t see Jesus.