My Firsts

New moms love to take note of their FIRST baby’s FIRSTS. My mom is now 65 years old and i wonder if she can still recall some of my FIRSTS as a baby. hehehe. I was a “home-away mom” so i don’t have a record of my girl’s firsts.

I guess we jst have in mind recorded most of our firsts. We still can’t say of LASTS (except for a few) because we still continue to live.

Here are some of the FIRSTS in my life…as far as i can remember.

June 1978 – first time to attend school. kindergarten. but lasted only for two weeks because i screamed in class everytime i don’t see my mom at the door. I guess i had that “leaving you” phobia.

Cherry Bell S my first close friend in primary school. But she left my school on our 4th grade year.

Teacher Nelly my first teacher (kindergarten)

Teacher Miraflores – my first primary school teacher.

R.B.S. – my first boyfriend (1986). I was first year highschool and he was 2nd year. He was the guy who taught me what is that “bf/gf” thing is all about.

June 1987 – first hearbroken. it was my first time to feel that “love pain”. I cried for weeks. hahaha!

First Kiss – college boyfriend.

1985 – received a letter from a guy proposing he likes me. I was grade 6 and the guy ws college. yikes! (of course i turned him down)

MP – first guy who wrote my parents that he want me to be his girl friend.

1986 – first time to see Mountain View College (my future school for college that time)

Secretary to the Business Manager & Treasurer – first job (temporary) after graduation in college. (1994)

J.J.M– first guy whom i thought for real that he is the “man” for me. I bet i thought of that but guess i was not the “woman” for him.

Bacolod San & Hospital – first place of my ”real” job after graduation in college — away from home.

Sept 2001 – first domestic plane ride. (Bacolod to Manila). Travelling alone.

June 2002 – first international plane ride (Manila to Hongkong). With company of 2 na mga first timers then.

June 2002 – first “real” train ride. (Hongkong to Shijiazhuang City). with company then.

August 2005 – first travel abroad on my own. (Manila to Beijing).

Melinda Q – first cyber friend (1996). She was my postcard penpal. It was great!

January 1997 – first time i knew i was pregnant.

Cried & almost to faint– my first reaction when my pregnancy confirmed by test.

G – first person to know i was pregnant. nagsma kasi when i had the PT.

Mom – first person i told “i am pregnant” aside from the guy coz he was with when i did my preg test at a hospital in Cebu.

September 1997 – gave birth to my first baby. A girl!

June 1998 – first time trip to Manila. (on my own)

March 2002 – first time to experience big pimples. hehehe. (am really so sure about that! can’t forget it ever coz it was my first time)

September 11 2003 – had my first desktop computer.

June 2005– sold out that first computer.

China – first international country i visited and worked for.

Xin Wei Foreign Language School — first school i worked for in China.

Niu Ben (Paul) – first chinese employer.

James B – first american employer

April 1993 – first time to travel with a bf.

April 1994 first time to go inside the cinema to see a movie (SM Davao)

Baby’s Day Out – First movie watched inside the cinema (i then thought going inside the cinema is not bad after all. ang daming tao. meron pa ngang mga bata.)

First Baptism – 4th grade. I would say “first” because i had my 2nd baptism in 1999.

Life Is What We Make it – my first blog.

More to come if sth will pop up in mind.

What Will You Be When You Grow Up?

When i was still a little girl (before grade school), my parents or aunts and uncles would ask me that. My answer would always be, I am going to be a stewardes. They would reply, what? a stewardess?. Yes, a stewardess of China Airlines. And now i can still feel the proudness of my voice — I am going to be a China Airlines stewardess or Singapore Airlines stewardess.

What in the world made me want to be a flight attendant? I’ts the Reader’s Digest. My mom used to bring home some old copies of RD from the hospital and i find the reading material very interesting. RD years ago have lessers ads and if there are mostly its just airliner ads. In my young age i would think that the Chinese flight attendants are the most beautiful ladies in the world. I would try to stretch my eyes to let me have that chinky-eyed face and then practice my smile infront of the mirror. I find it so amusing and i feel proud of it. hehehe

I grew up in a hospital environment where nurses and doctors are part of throng of people i met each day. I find the nurses so elegant in their unforms with the cap and white stockings and shoes. So later, i thought i am going to be a nurse. I decided i have to chose between being a nurse and a stewardess. Later, my mom would ask me, what will you be when you grow up? I would say, i am going to be a nurse and i will go to Africa to be a missionary nurse. I can’t ever forget my mom’s reply — “ok, go to Africa and leave us here. When we (mom & dad) die, you can never attend the burial and will never see us again.” Wahhh that was a scary comment (or was it a threat) for me. But, now as an adult i realized it was a discouraging remark.

Comments of friends that i can’t forget on about me “going to be a stewardess” –

1. one can’t be a stewardess if you are not tall.

2. one can’t be a stewardess if you have scar on the legs or in the face or any part of your body.

3. one can’t be a stewardess if you have FALSE TEETH.

I am emphasizing on false teeth because my dream to be a stewardess crumbled down when i was on my 3rd year in highschool. Just because of that. I was lured by a dentist to have my tooth fixed (i have teeth arrangement like sharon cuneta’s side teeth. seems one tooth is obviously ontop of another). Of course i agreed with the dentist to pull the lower tooth sothat the upper tooth will level with the front teeth. Anyway…after the dental appointment, i realized the doctor removed 2 instead of 1. I cried so hard because the space was too obvious and i need to wear a false one to cover the space. I really can’t forget how upset i was that day. 2 weeks later, i had the new “false” teeth on and i feel i never looked the same anymore.

I didn’t become a stewardess. Neither a nurse.

They Shay Story

Below is a story whose author i did not know. I don’t know if this is a true account or the author just wanted to let us read this to boost up our morals. Whoever wrote this — thanks to you — it made me shed a tear.

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:

“When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?” The audience was stilled by the query. The father continued. “I believe,that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes, in the way other people treat that child.”Then he told the following story:

Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked,”Do you think they’ll let me play?” Shay’s father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps. Shay’s father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and said, “We’re losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we’ll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.” Shay struggled over to the team’s bench put on a team shirt with a broad smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father’s joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay’s team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay’s team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat. At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible ’cause Shay didn’t even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.

However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the other team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay’s life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher. The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game. Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the head of the first baseman, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, “Shay, run to first! Run to first!” Never in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled. Everyone yelled, “Run to second, run to second!” Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to second base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball, the smallest guy on their team, who had a chance to be the hero for his team for the first time. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher’s intentions and he too intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman’s head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home. All were screaming, “Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay”

Shay reached third base, the opposing shortstop ran to help him and turned him in the direction of third base, and shouted, “Run to third! Shay, run to third” As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams and those watching were on their feet were screaming, “Shay, run home! Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the “grand slam” and won the game for his team.

That day, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world. Shay didn’t make it to another summer and died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his Father so happy and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

Happy Reading!

Is She Pregant?

She’s a family. She manifested some questionable actions lately. Though she is close but really haven’t taken time to know her personal life. She’s still a student and also struggling financially to finish college. And as family, I do want her to finish up and work and make a life of her own comfortably opposite to what she had experienced while growing up. At least too she can help her 6 younger brothers and sister.

Is she pregnant?

I asked my mom days ago and mom, “i dunno.” Wish I just have the courage to really ask upfront so that whatever should be done should be done to avoid future problems. I don’t mean am no prolife..I am but just this is just not the right time and if ever my intution is right — just so much dreams will be shattered – AGAIN! 🙁

News of pregnancy can be exciting but not for her — now as in NOW nor at least before she finishes college.

And oh my goshhh — in times like this! Why just can’t they have protected sex? Condoms are in galore in every supermarket all over the country. Haiii

Just talking out loud.